A Miracle

Today.

Isn't it amazing how one ordinary day can change your world? Can change the pattern of eternity? Today was that day for me.

 Today Chris and I were at the hospital with a basket filled with goodies for a courageous, determined, selfless birth mother.

 Today I walked in AND out of labor and delivery! When I walked in, I was the mother of 3 beautiful children. When I walked out 3 hours later, I was the mother of 4 beautiful children.

 Today my husband became a father again. He is so good at it. This has been a journey that has led us down paths we never could have anticipated travelling. My husband has shown incredible courage and faith, as he always does, in hearing the Lord's voice and doing His will. Sometimes the journey can be so different than you planned...but he has never shunned the difficult. And today he embraced his son with incredible love and tenderness.

 Today we met our new son for the very first time. And he took our breath away.

 He has a strong spirit...great strength. I could feel it holding him. And I feel honored to be his mother.

 Today I joined hands with another mother as she entrusted us with this most precious and dear of all gifts. We are partners. She has done her part and now it is time for me to do mine. Both of us play critical roles in bringing this new baby to the world and making sure he does all he has been sent to do. He has a great work and purpose...I am beyond grateful to be a part of his journey. 

 Today I marvelled that we have the opportunity to participate in this incredible blessing of adoption. I don't know why we have been blessed with the enormous gift of biological children and adopted children but I feel so blessed.

 Adoption allows you to see miracles in how the Lord brings families together. I testify that it is not an accident, that there is purpose and incredible meaning each person's place in this world. Families are a miracle...I knew that before. That testimony was reaffirmed today.

 Today my children welcomed a new sibling...and they did it with tremendous love.

 Today big brothers became that much bigger and a little sister became a big sister.

 Today Grandpa and Grandma Carr welcomed grandchild #26. We aren't helping the imbalance of girls to boys...last count on the Carr side was 8 girls and 18 boys!

Today I sat in the blue armchair in our living room for hours holding this new baby. I stroked his fingers and his soft hair and just felt overwhelmed. It is overwhelming. My emotions are a roller coaster, changing from one moment to the next. But the overwhelming emotion is of wonder and gratitude.

This has truly been a miraculous journey. I want to share that journey...but not tonight. Tonight I want to snuggle with my new baby and 3 "big" kids and marvel at what a miracle today was.



My Children

I am positively, unabashedly addicted to my children. I think they are cute...so cute. And funny...and smart...and incredibly creative...and imaginative...and so fun to be with...and...and...and...

These pictures prove it is all true.

Can't argue with kids that cute...

Fa La La La La...(snore)

I love the holidays. Love them. But things start going so quickly when what I really want is for things to slow down and for this season to linger just a little longer than it seems to. And I need a nap...a long, long winter's nap. I want a couple of days where I get into my most comfy pajamas and go to bed and just sleep and sleep and then read for a bit before going back to sleep...and repeat for the whole 2 days. Doesn't that sound fantastic? But then I would miss so many of the wonderful things I love...

I love the happy twinkle lights. They light up the cold, dark nights.

I love the music...oh, the glorious music. You should hear me sing the chorus to "Angels We Have Heard On High" or the Hallelujah chorus. I'm really something standing there in the shower singing my guts out.

I love Christmas decorations...the gorgeous tree my husband decorated, the 3 little trees that my children decorated, the greenery with little white lights, bows, the gingerbread house decorated with all the leftover Halloween candy, the stockings hung on the banister, the tiny manager MC made in scouts this month holding the very small baby doll dressed in pink footie pj's, the creepy "elf on a shelf" with his wee beady eyes (the kids have finally started sleeping in their own beds again)...it is just all so lovely.

The baskets of Christmas books. I love books.

The goodies in the kitchen. We now have enough delicious baked goods and candy to open our own shop...but we are WAY to selfish to share. Get your own.

The fact that all 3 of our children are over at Grandma and Grandpa's house for a cousin sleepover and Chris and I are sitting in a SILENT house with all those delicious goodies in the kitchen looking at each other in the glow of the tree lights. And frantically trying to finish last minute Christmas stuff...if you haven't received a Christmas card from us, no worries. I'm sure we'll get them finished before Easter.

Hope your season is filled with twinkle lights and lots of merriment. I would have included pictures but all those baked goodies are settling my body into this blue chair and I can't get up.

Something New...

Wow. I'm WAY overdue for a new post. Hogwarts castle was great a month ago but I'm ready for something new. Let's start with this...

The remainder of my "business" trip to Florida was fabulous! Loved the Core Knowledge conference, loved being with 2 amazing friends, loved the "alone/grown up" time...I came home with my little internal teacup filled to overflowing. It was an incredible trip!

 We spent an afternoon hanging out at the Kennedy Space Center where despite NASA's best efforts to help the average American citizen understand rocket science, I still felt grossly underqualified and slow. I knew they were explaining everything as "simply" as they could and I still felt lost. But the rockets were really cool...and the astronauts were awesome...and we saw a real life alligator just hanging out in the pond by the memorial. THAT was a little creepy. Ducks in the pond...perfect. Frogs...interesting. Alligators...scary.

 There was a spectacular pool at the hotel we were staying at. We would take short breaks from the conference and go eat lunch or our snacks out there. One day after the conference, a friend and I headed down for a little R&R time and I fell sound asleep in the little cabana below. It was the BEST nap I have had in a long time...maybe years. It was warm and balmy, the palm trees were swaying gently, the Cuban music lending a decidedly exotic atmosphere, and the smell of tropical flowers wafting in the air. I'll be thinking about that nap for years to come.

I arrived back in Utah in time for my foot surgery. See that ginormous red ugly lump? It was a bone spur that completely stunned me when I saw the x-ray...a pirate's hook of bone. I like to think I'm somewhat gifted and talented when it comes to growing scary bone spurs...and it was 4 years overdue for being removed. Surgery went great, got to sit in my favorite blue chair for a few days and read books. Can't beat that.

 HB performed in the "pre-show" to a play being performed by our community children's theater. She was dressed up as a flapper and sang that song about an ant moving a rubber tree plant...darling.

 Thanksgiving was a true feast! Carrie and Todd know how to smoke a turkey and put on a party. Just look at that stuffing served in a steamed squash. Who does that? I'm so happy to be related to people who are experts at food.

 Carrie asked each of the nieces and nephews to provide the table decorations. They were all clever and charming...here is the bread basket in the shape of a wooden spoon turkey. Genius.

 The absolute hit of the party as far as the kids were concerned was the "drink bar". Carrie posted drink recipes and had a little set up that kept the kids entertained all day long. The kids were expert drink makers by the end of the day...I''m keeping the hard stuff away from these little slushs!

I loved this little Thanksgiving Day feast done by MC. I love the variety of characters sitting together in peace and harmony to drink away their cares and share a little meat...especially the guy with the two sided head.

 Food glorious food.

 And because I am an Oscarson, a picture of my plate full of food. It's just what we Oscarsons do.

 I was so surprised and enchanted with the "decoration" HB made...turkey name cards made from buttons and scrapbook paper. The girl is a never ending source of wonder for me!

 A little "after dinner/before pie" stroll around the lake...

 And please be impressed with the turkey shirt and hair accessory I just whipped up for my daughter while watching the  Macy's Day parade...it was a very inspiring parade.

 Next on the calendar was HB's birthday. How did my darling baby become so big?

 The boys and my husband spent the days leading up to her birthday designing and building a "French Cafe" for her birthday. It is so charming and darling...she was absolutely enchanted.

 HB chose to go to Build A Bear for her birthday gift with a little stop at the frozen yogurt shop afterwards.

 And of course there was cake and big brothers....

 Next...my birthday. I am 40ish...it all becomes a blur after 30.

 And suddenly it is December and we are opening the first gift of the season. We always get a new book to add to our collection. This year it was the Elf On a Shelf book that creeped my children out. JC swears he saw it blink, MC wouldn't sleep in his room, and HB announced it was the creepiest  little elf she had ever seen. Not the charming addition to the holidays we were hoping for...

 HB had a "Littlest Pet Shop" party that she literally planned and directed all by herself. Her and Chris designed the cake...a paw print with Littlest Pet Shops playing at the park on top. Thank heavens for my ultra talented husband. I'd be SUNK without him...

 And then a family party where we celebrated our birthdays by eating a big 7 layer cake from Costco.

 And it is getting late but I will come back soon to tell you how I got to be my sister's "birthing" partner in one of the miraculous experiences I have ever had. Carrie's husband was in Singapore (the country...in Asia...24 hours by plane from UT) when her water broke and I got to be there to see little OK come into the world. I don't know why I was granted this amazing experience but it will truly be something I treasure for the rest of my life. Carrie was AMAZING...brave, patient, gracious, strong. And my darling nephew is a miracle that filled my heart with so much joy the minute I laid eyes on him that I knew I would never be the same.

It has been a season of so many amazing miracles. I feel grateful for the tender mercies of the Lord every day in my life and for the rich opportunities and experiences he has granted me.